How do you know when something feels right and when you should act on it? See you can manage/block emotions for a certain period of time but then they will always catch up with you no matter what – and for me these are the days.
Thought I’d contemplate because I’ve never really allowed myself time to do that this past 12 months – actually I have never had time to myself, when thinking about it I have spent energy on AIESEC 24/7 for 2 years – was it by choice or default is another topic for another day.
I guess I’m not over the fact that the end has come for me in getting my hands dirty, it just feels strange – I have been extremely bored doing nothing for the past one week, even a friend of mine was shocked to hear that I HAVE NOTHING TO DO coz ever since I joined AIESEC there was never a moment where I would sit and idle – everything was always a rush , I had 12 months to think about global issues & how relevant they were to my immediate society, people to network with who could be enablers to our coarse, projects to do that are impactful to people, managing people who carried out these duties, and of all this bring tangible results… that was the fuel of my being…of my existence for the past couple of years and now I have to re-focus that existence, it’s like I have been told to live another life all over again and don’t know where to beginning.
Well I start working for PWC this coming Monday, I hope it will re-energise and motivate me again, and since they are a global organisation I guess I will find passion again in one aspect or another.
….okay this is a kinda good-bye to an organisation that has taught me all that I know – yes all that I know. I joined when I was 17 years old and now I’m 23 so you can imagine! I’m not very good at expressing myself emotionally and those who know me will agree totally – but I saw it fitting to write this as it has been bugging me for some time now.
To all the people I have met – I truly appreciate your acquaintance, you have added a wealth of knowledge to me when you spoke about your passion, country, and what you thought about life in general. Till we meet again – keep well.
Khotso,